Greetings. This is my subconscious via internet, in its purest rawest form. I will not say details about myself except the following, but if you know who I am, please appreciate this. If you don't, may you drink bleach.
"hi, I am your run of the mill (ivy league, gotta throw that in there) college girl who has some ideas with what she will do with her life. "
Meditation is about seeing clearly the body that we have, the mind that we have, the domestic situation that we have, the job that we have, and the people who are in our lives. It’s about seeing how we react to all these things. It’s seeing our emotions and thoughts just as they are right now, in this very moment, in this very room, on this very seat. It’s about not trying to make them go away, not trying to become better than we are, but just seeing clearly with precision and gentleness.
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The problem is that the desire to change is fundamentally a form of aggression toward yourself. The other problem is that our hangups, unfortunately or fortunately, contain our wealth. Our neurosis and our wisdom are made out of the same material. If you throw out your neurosis, you also throw out your wisdom.
“Look at you all at the coffee machine laughing it up; you suspect not a thing. ‘How are the kids? That ball game—what a blast!’ I hope you had fun, because it was your last. Here in my cube, oh yes I have been patient in planning your dooms—death by exsanguination. You’ll watch the blood staining the conference room table. You’ll wish you’d not eaten my lunch that was labeled.”
Mindfulness is simply being aware of what is happening right now without wishing it were different;
enjoying the pleasant without holding on when it changes (which it will);
being with the unpleasant without fearing it will always be this way (which it won’t).
James Baraz
(via purplebuddhaproject)